Today was kinda emo. I just don't know how to get rid of this kinda feelings. Yeah, I knew that, I take it too importantly and forgot that people might not take it as important as what I did.

I wondered, are they just don't like to share things out, or they don't like to share things with me. Most probably will be the second one I guess. How badly I tried not to think in this way but it is just useless. Maybe because I'm too talkative, maybe I'm not a good listener, or maybe I'm not one of them. Any of the above reasons will make me feel like dying. I have nobody to talk to, thanks to my lovely blog. Finally I have a way to release my burden.

I wondered, why am I living so suffering? Yeah, the answer I already knew, just trying to ignore it. I treat everything and everyone too important. I shouldn't like this. The standard should be equalized. And now that is imbalance occurred. I was so stupid, treat importantly for people that are not care me so much. And felt so hurt when they try to ignore my words, not respect me and etc. Sometimes just felt so hurt, when you tried to do something meaningful to those who you care so much, but instead they just don't know everything and treat you so badly.

What for I did such things to hurt myself? Foolish! I should have the rights to treat myself good. Time passed, and I nearly forgot those memories. Before this, I thought I was just overprotecting myself. Yet, I was wrong, once again. It is correct for me to protect myself as I too easily get hurt by you people.

Sometimes, I knew, people might not want to share things out. Yet, please don't claim it is "Secret" and refuse to tell me. If you don't want to tell me, just don't purposely say a little things out to make me curious. Now, I want to make myself strong. Having a fragile heart is not a good thing for me, definitely. Curiosity kills the cat. I will not be so curious anymore.

I should treat myself good, not cruel anymore. Every time hurts my own heart, isn't a nice thing, seriously. My heart couldn't afford anymore. It's time for my heart to have a deep rest. Now, I wont expect anything from you all. As long as you all are supportive, any other thing I will just ignore. I'm tired. No expectations, no disappointment. They wouldn't know how disappointed am I today.

I can't even tell you. That's the worst part. I tell myself, everything will be fine and I wont be fooled by anyone, anymore~!

Don't need to share things with me. I'm tired for being so concerning about you all's things. Sorry for being busy body previously. It wont happen anymore, I promised.

~Pig you, sleep until now.. T_T~