I suffer in the pain condition almost 1 year. I keep waking up myself for not caring about it, but every time I failed to do it. I cry with no tears. You dunno how suffer I am. And you just like a freedom guy pretending nothing and happily at the other side.
Friends all telling me: " See! How you suffer at here, how sad you are, how many tears you drop down for HE..but he still remain nothing at there! What for you do so much and care so much for he?! "
At the beginning, I telling them I just care a friend, but I just realize that is more than friend. I still can't control myself. Till one day, one of my friend ask me that: Friend:" If one day, he got a GF, how you will do? "Me:" .... I dunno... I scare of that day.. I dunno how face it. "Friend:" I tell you, you will more hurt and more suffer than now. You will take more and more time to recover from the pain."Me:" ...I know... I dunno how let go.. I got my own way to forget, but I can't do it. "Friend:" What's the way? You already know how to do dy, why don't you just do it? "Me:" If I use my way to forget he.. I will delete all things about he.. FB, SMS, Photo and all things related with he.. but I can't do it cause I don't wan to lose a friend. "Friend:" But you wan make yourself more suffer and pain everytime??? "Me:" I dunwan.. "Friend:" Then just do it! You know what you should do! "Thanks my friend ask a Question to waking me up, cause I really dunno how to face it if he have a GF, and I dun wan to hurt again. Is enough for me to suffer those pain.
Is time to WAKE-UP GAL! ^^