Kinda Emo now…

All of sudden, a weird feeling hit me right from the front. Seemingly all these while, all the effort I put, all the things I build up like wasted, like rubbish to others. I don’t see anyone appreciate it at all.

Those people around me, get near to get help and go away when they got what they need. Maybe I should say this is the actual world and Welcome, Alan…

I should wake up…

I knew the actual world very well, but I hope it might can change, maybe friendship can change some/little, I don’t know, but I believe. Now, I started to question myself about that, one by one, each people who pass by and leave, were those grab benefit and then gone…

“Please help….. this and that…..”
“OK..” (This is the answer I always replied)
I try every best to help every single little thing, try to make the best solution from their problem.

In return, they just turn me down by “I don’t know…” “You do it yourself” or “you should try it yourself”…

Emm… Wondering why I have such thought tonight, night which a days away from my birthday (Luna Calendar). Maybe is the time I should think for myself, and not for others anymore.

The answer for the next request come front me, I will reply instantly with this…

“Please try to settle yourself…”

I got more more important thing which I have to do for myself, my my own good.

Others will be just fine without me, because they never considered me as a true friend initially.