I have learnt several things in the recent months.

The single and most important change in me is to be more selfish.

I'm fucked enough times to learn that I can't make everyone happy without making myself unhappy.
People just don't appreciate what you have done for them.

Instead of pushing myself to sacrifice everything, I learn to save some for myself.

And yeah, I learn to admit that I'm so much indifferent in my decision and way of thinking.

There's no point forcing myself to follow others.
I'm just unconventional (or weird).

I do not need to change my perspective or personality for people who don't even bother to spend their effort understanding me.

I just need to stop fucking care about the negative impression people have on me.

That makes me feel better.

Lastly, I learn to enjoy the little luxury in life.

Why torture myself further when I'm already stuck inside an infinite looping of 11 hours a day for 300+ days a year?

I deserve things that're made in greater quality.
I deserve the premium experience that I can buy without hurting my purse.