It was the second day of my training and overall it was still okay. Nothing for me to demand as my work time is damn flexible and is not that tension or stress also, plus the boss was just so friendly la.

What I wanna express here is not about my training but my little sis's future. I really got no idea about her future as it is her future and not mine. I don't understand why my mom keep nag about the same thing infront me and ask me to check this and that whereas the paritcular individual did not care about her future at all. I understand that they wanna gain some information for the university but after getting all the info, start all the question marks that had been settle again and again. Okay, make it this way...I have my own problem and my own personal matters to deal with in my daily life. Do they understand? I am not my sis's consultant and I am not the person in-charge for her great future. Not mine as I have decided mine earlier ago as what they wish me to stay in Malacca.

I can't stand it anymore!!!!! Why my parents always put my little sis's future on my shoulder as if it was mine future? Is it my responsible to deal with it? or should I ask this way, should it become one of my burden to think about her future since herself did not care about also. Why would all of us bother so much about it? Can't we just leave her alone....she's the one to get scold and not me. Sometimes, I really think that I had made a wrong decision as to stay back in Malacca. I would have chose another path if ..... Plus, being the second child among the siblings was not an easy task, trust me...it is never be that simple.

In between the fight or reward, you will always be the middle one. If there is a fight within and is non of your business, you will still get scold. If your elder or little sis fall down or get what injuries, you will get scold together and also punishment together. As for the reward, either the elder or younger will always get rewarded. Elder sis and younger sis were always rewarded and being the second child will just share with either one of them or else just gain nothing after working so hard. That's why till today, I won't fight for something that doesn't meant for me and I just do my best in my studies for my future. I have gotta outstand myself once I got the chance.

Is not easy being the second child in the family. There's always sacrifices for me and that's why I am more towards independent types and I can go for a movie alone and do things alone. Life is just too much for everyone on earth to explore and it never comes to an end till your life ended. Perhaps this would be my individual's conflict.

Whew~ thanks for reading all my post here. I feel better after typing all out!

I hope I am the one by your side now......in fact, I am not.